join me on my quest for peace of mind

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join me on my quest for peace of mind
#26
RE: join me on my quest for peace of mind
If you communicated with others why you're doing what you're doing you could avoid some of that, I guess. ask others in those other communities to be patient and understanding and that you'll participate more fully eventually when you're ready

other than that particular thing, basically what btp said, about not getting trapped in self loathing
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#27
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(05-05-2016, 10:23 PM)Wheat Wrote: »it's a currency for conversation

same
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#28
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currency?? conversation?? the most conversation i have is a small handful of people saying "wow nice draw" at me once or twice
meanwhile i never really say a word to anyone else, at all? what happens when i see some art i like is 1. i show it to a friend 2. we gush over it a bit 3. i immediately start tearing myself apart
without saying a WORD, directly or indirectly, to the person who made the nice art

there's no conversation here, if i stop following some tumblr artists they probably aren't even gonna notice.
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#29
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like i GUESS when i show a nice draw i found to someone else, we're having a conversation. but most of the time i end up turning it into "why can't i make stuff that looks this nice?"

and after hearing so many times
that my art isn't bad, it's just that my standards for art have improved beyond what i can do, from observing other art,
i can only come to the solution of lowering my standards for art somehow??? because the usual solution of "practice more and raise my skill" isn't happening lol
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#30
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i talk nonstop about "hey look at this" "i see it" "thank you"

i could teach you
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#31
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i'm not sure how much it'd help. i can't change the way i am right now

and it doesn't make any difference to me if other people are going "look at this art i found" "it's nice" to each other about my art considering i never, ever hear about them. if someone paints a tree in the forest and no one else sees it and they didn't get anything out of the experience, then it was a waste of time imo

anyway i'm going to bed good night
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#32
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alright i don't know anything about your situation artwise, I was taking a guess and I guess it's wrong?? so, I guess disregard any advice I made about it sorry


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anyway people here will support you in whatever Doip
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#33
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(05-06-2016, 05:08 AM)KittenEater Wrote: »and it doesn't make any difference to me if other people are going "look at this art i found" "it's nice" to each other about my art

i wasn't even talking about that you think I was talkon about me showing people your art I don't even know you no I'm talking about having nothing to talk about but my own shit cartoons because I'm so self absored

I was offering to teach you my methods but I'm not sure you're worth bothering with
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#34
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Also I haven't rly read the dad thread so maybe I'm missing something
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#35
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¡héré! ¡fór sáyíñg thát gréóñgédléd Í ám púttíñg yóú íñ líñé!

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¡yóú áré íñ líñé ñów!
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#36
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¡yóú cáñ't gét óút óf líñé úñtíl yóú gét yóúr tíckét púñchéd!
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#37
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(05-06-2016, 09:44 AM)Wheat Wrote: »I mean it makes sense what you're doing, it just feels like you're trying to fix your problem the less ideal way by cutting yourself off from things that you used to like, but don't now for Reasons.
yeah, i'm aware.

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yeah, it makes sense, i know i have to get out of this house. i just can't yet, so i need to find ways to feel okay in the meantime.

if it helps, i guess i could try to describe what was specifically bugging me yesterday? since you said you don't know what's going on with my art situation.
to put it shortly, on aywas i'm generally competing for peoples attention and money with my art skills, and i'm not good at it.
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#38
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I MEAN THERE'S, a lot more stuff that sets me off than what i put in that last spoiler. pretty much any time i see some really well-composed draws, it makes me start trying to analyze how they did it, and whether or not i can figure out what they did, i realize that my art style isn't very distinctive or even consistent, it changes a lot? and i don't practice anything and i can't make myself practice... it's frustrating

i just bring up the aywas stuff because it feels more concrete.
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#39
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Ah yeah just dont go to a was that sounds good
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#40
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it'ssss stillllll the only place i'm making money thoughhhhhhh even though it's not very much money, not very oftennnnnn

i could probably be getting more recognition and making more money if i just worked harder. i mean, obviously :y

ACTUALLY THAT REMINDS ME??? of something i realized The Most Popular Artist on that site is pulling off??? ohhh man ohhh gosh, it's gonna be hard to keep it short while getting enough detail to make it coherent to non-aywas-users, but here goes

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#41
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(05-06-2016, 06:09 PM)OrangeAipom Wrote: »Ah yeah just dont go to a was that sounds good
¿Whát áré yóú dóíñg?
¡Yóú stíll hávé ñót góttéñ yóúr tíckét púñchéd!
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#42
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Where do I get it punched
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#43
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¡Héré íñ líñé; bút ít ís ñót tímé yét! ¡Yóú múst wáít fór thé úshér!
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#44
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*punches my own ticket with my fist*
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#45
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my irl friend took me practice driving today, it was super scary but it feels good to get some real practice in after a while.

anyway i'm thinking about aywas stuff and some possible other money-job i could take there and starting to get actually excited for it??? it'll probably fade by tomorrow though. i could technically apply to it right now if i wanted to, but i think i wanna get some stuff ready ahead of time.

i'm really bad at this "stop looking at art" thing even though technically i could apply and do this thing with minimal art-viewing, since it's just me putting my stuff out there.
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#46
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i'm half-convinced it's a bad idea but i still wanna try it.
(9 uncolored pet bases in two weeks, if i get accepted. idk if i can work that fast but making uncolored bases is fun for me.)
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#47
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(05-07-2016, 12:14 AM)OrangeAipom Wrote: »*punches my own ticket with my fist*
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¡Ñów yóú'ré óút óf líñé!
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#48
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(05-07-2016, 02:35 AM)Wheat Wrote: »
(05-07-2016, 12:14 AM)OrangeAipom Wrote: »*punches my own ticket with my fist*
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¡Ñów yóú'ré óút óf líñé!

this thread isn't about me it's about kitet have some compassion
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#49
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to be fair, i have like, 5 hawkspace threads about me already, 's kind of a bad habit
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#50
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nah dude that's what hawkspace is for!
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